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I WILL BE IN TOP 48 IN BLACKPOOL THIS COMING YEAR 2012

2011-11-11T02:53:00.000-08:00

still going..

2011-05-17T02:14:00.000-07:00

One project left and then thesis..
A lot done this year, a lot learned.
Got much better in contemporary
Found new things about my body
Kept up the Latin
Doing my first presentation in dance science
Now have to think a bit about the future,
what is going to happen next year..
I'd like to do something exciting and well paid..
back to work now..

Working hard but enjoying it

2011-03-31T03:06:00.000-07:00

It is that time of the year when things just seem to keep going and going...and going. Another assignment due, more dance classes, more projects, more work. Its all good though, I like my program, the dancing is getting better everytime, and job is bearable;) Did a photoshoot recently, some nice pics are now on fb, also a contemporary tango performance is due in May. A girl is coming for a tryout soon from the baltics, this might be good. Some interesting developments in the relationship field recently, I am not sure how I feel about it...

Uni, work, projects

2011-02-10T09:46:00.000-08:00

It seems to never stop, but I can't complain, I really like what I am doing now. It is the first time I am really interested in my school projects. Besides that all the different classes I am doing are keeping me active and improving my dancing..
I don't really have a social life but weed and alcoohol with ernest at home seem to suffice for now..
Will try to write about some of my research soon when I get a minute...

Christmas

2010-12-25T01:55:00.000-08:00

The previous post was actually going to be a rant about a girl that I could not get but after I wrote about two paragraphs it got deleted somehow and I could not reproduce the same words, maybe it is for the best...

Just had our christmas party, with turkey, potatoes, christmas tree and decorations and all..it was great, but the guests didn't show up:) I guess it was the short notice as well as the lack of transportation yesterday. Nevertheless we had a good time (E, B, and I) and spend a nice evening celebrating, and eating and drinking too much..

Merry Christmas!

That nagging feeling again...

2010-12-12T07:53:00.000-08:00

first lyrical/latin performance

2010-12-05T09:09:00.001-08:00

Almost Christmas

2010-11-26T02:24:00.000-08:00

Time seems to fly when you are busy, I still remember how I was leaving Austria and beginning Laban and now I the first semester is almost over...I think it has been great, almost what I expected:) the few roadblocks that came about were either surmountable or of my own making in some way, I should try and maintain this positive feeling about it. I also must recognise that many of the things I envisaged for myself this year are either already happening or are in the progress. I am doing the latin/lyrical mix show, improving my ballet and contemporary techniques and starting to settle my life a bit by finishing my degrees. There have been some strange circumstances on the relationship level but I am confident it will resolve itself soon. Overall I am happy.

Clarity

2010-10-19T03:43:00.000-07:00

is coming slowly, the initial shock is wearing off and the eyes see better in accordance with the mind...
I think it is the change of place and time and the crazy energy of it all that made me feel what I felt while writing the last post.
The reality is that I have changed lifestyle quite a lot in the last few years and my brain has trouble coping with it while my emotions run wild.
I do need some guidance though, I will speak to my tutor today, maybe this will help, a bit.
Age is in the back of my mind, and doubt about some things, I try to fight them off but don't always succeed, hence all the self help literature.
I hope I can come to a balance soon, I think I will, hopefully without losing the excitement of it all...

What is going on?

2010-09-17T13:33:00.000-07:00

That is the question.
One does not know and yet you search...
I am lost but feel so found.
What is it about this time around?
I become more me than ever and am ever more lost.
what da fuck?
What is going on?
Dance, life, life, dance,
what is the truth?
I feel but am overwhelmed
I am happy but somehow lost
This is a new stage...
I am not even stoned but I know I must act on...what?
Is that what artists go through?
Is it only a phase?
I have no answers, I have no one to give them to me, maybe that is how it is supposed to be...
Freedom comes at the cost of sanity
grasping that fully makes you...what?
I wish I had more time...at least a little bit, to think about it
I am sorry, Please forgive me, I love you, thank you
I am sorry, Please forgive me, I love you, thank you
...

back to london...

2010-09-02T13:42:00.000-07:00

Wow, it has been a ride, the last month and a bit and even more I have been here there and everywhere possible both physically and emotionally. From the final fights with bea to seeing friends in Montreal, to being stoned on an international flight, and finally being out in the streets of London with my luggage and no place to stay seemingly...
I am really glad that it is over and trying to plan my life now, everything with laban is now arranged and I will commence the journey soon, I have already started to work at Habs and this is keeping me busy so it is good. I am really looking forward to regain my life again, it has been slightly surreal and I need to get back to normal, the problem is I don't know what normal is anymore, I don't have a dance partner and for the first time in my life am not too excited to get a new one, I am going to study what I love but don't really know what to expect, I wll work in a job that pays the bills in the meanwhile, I am a bit lost at the moment but it is positive and I am happy to be in such a free state of mind. Things will align themselves, I am sure of that much.

Montreal

2010-07-29T09:47:00.000-07:00

Fuck it is alway weird to be in this city again, I guess if you start to do things this goes away but generally it is strange. I am not used to live with my parents anymore, I don't know what is going on with my friends, and I have nothing to really keep me busy, hence the untangible discomfort. I also always feel like I need a girlfriend here, I guess it is either the loneliness or the abundance of short skirts around..
All the preparations for the visa application are done now just have to apply and wait, all will be fine.
Tomorrow am off to PEI with the family so will be back tanned and relaxed.

Some more modern theater "cats"

2010-07-22T14:32:00.000-07:00

Me in 'Queen', modern dance theater performance

2010-07-02T05:15:00.000-07:00

The annual Montreal trip

2010-07-02T05:07:00.000-07:00

I will be coming on the 16th of July and will stay until the 17th of August. I might go with my parents to PEI for two weeks between the 31st July and 10th of August. Hope to see some friends in the available weeks and relax before a new year back in London in September.
I am not sure if Beatrix comes with me this time all between us is up in the air at the moment, but we will know soon enough, for now I will just focus on my plans and try to relax.

psycho games

2010-05-05T10:21:00.000-07:00

I cannot take this bullshit anymore, dancing is about being happy not depressed...
It should not be so exhausting just to be around your partner I don't know why it even happens anymore, are there other fundamental reasons? Is it just small bullshit things? I don't know how to solve this anylonger...

Some news

2010-04-07T07:00:00.000-07:00

Got a letter of acceptance from laban , dance science master's programm, ...so now have to ask afe for 14000 pounds:) but it is still a nice feeling, I like to be accepted into things and I like my government to support me.
We have new Tcheck coaches here, yaroslav and yana kunes, they are great, he is probably the best teacher i ever had: knowledge, patience, and ability all in one...we love them.
Here is a new pic from our photoshoot :

B day

2010-03-18T03:50:00.000-07:00

I almost forgot about it this time around, and I wish I would have...although it is not as bad as the last one it still sucks. I will not even speak about it anymore.
I finally won my six month battle with the Austrian bureaucracy and got my artist visa, I guess now i could start my own firm in visa consulting...
I did my first theatre performance in modern dance, it is really cool and a very different feeling to latin. Inspiring music (we used 'queen') no real worries about partnership (although there is drama within the group) and a lot more high kicks, jumps, and floorwork.
I guess I will look for more jobs now, I need to make some money, this dependency situation sucks also.
I don't even know what else to say so that's it.

Show

2010-01-27T07:04:00.000-08:00

David and Beatrix cha cha

David and Beatrix rumba

Happy 2010!

2010-01-01T06:51:00.001-08:00

Ich lerne deutch...

2009-11-10T04:00:00.000-08:00

It is not easy to learn a new language...again
I think I have done that enough times in my life now...but i guess it will come in handy at some point, like if I want to do Franklin methode in german or simply in a german speaking country...
I have completed curz ein and starting zwei this week... there are four russian speakers, 3 turks, 1 indian, roumanian, and the aforementionned polish girl...somehow I feel wrong in this crowd...I am not eastern european anymore in the sense that they are. I guess being in foreign countries makes you feel foreign, especially here. In england, london at least, it was a different feeling. I feel a special affinity with london now that I am away.

Whats new...

2009-10-09T08:50:00.000-07:00

Dancing is in a certain stage where it almost gets worse, hopefully to get better..some issues to resolve such as no unnecessary leading and less reliance on the upper body, keeping it free for expression, between two people, different choreos, and music it will take some time..

Uni is progressing but at a snails pace, two more essays to write and still nine courses to go, I have to step on the gas this year, really...

Met a polish ballet/contemporary dancer girl, we kissy kissy but she has a boyfriend so I don't know where this is going, am not really in love so it doesn't matter I guess.

I need to make more money, I have said it before but it is becoming a clear resolution in my head, it will happen, soon...ish

Trying to stay positive, all is ok, nothing really exciting but neither discouraging so it is good.

I can see a clear direction in my career forming, I will be a choreographer/director of some sort, it was vague and far before but now I am seeing roots of reality..

Still in Austria

2009-09-18T03:41:00.000-07:00

I am sick and tired of the paperwork non sense that one has to go through in order to live in a different country...I have this feeling that these man made borders have no claim to real power, a human or any living being should be able to travel freely on this planet...like in the old days (I don't know which ones but I am sure it existed at least in some respect:) when people were happy for you to visit their country and invited you into their homes with smiles...

Austria

2009-08-28T07:26:00.000-07:00

It is more or less how I expected here...small town, nice atmosphere, possibly boring but I have things to do so it does not matter...I already managed to create drama though. I went out salsa dancing and stayed most of the evening with bea's best friend who has a boyfriend, although she didn't act like it:) anyway after some talking it is ok now. Chri is not writing as often as I would like her too...that makes me anxious, this whole travelling and need of people sucks...dancing is ok, getting better and better but still far from what we want it to be, it is the best I felt with any partner so far though...chuss!

Back to London

2009-08-19T06:02:00.001-07:00

Well as usual the visit to Montreal proved very interesting exciting and exhausting...at the end of this week I will be leaving to Austria though so there is no time to reflect really. Thanks to all of my friends who made me have a good time and hope to see you all in Europe sometime!

Canada visit

2009-07-16T05:50:00.001-07:00

Hello, well it is that time again!

I will be in Montreal from 26 July to 16 August, I will be with my new dancepartner Beatrix from Austria and will be busy making choreographies but would love to see all the people that read this (assuming I know you;). Send me an email if you have ideas for nice things to do whilst I am there.
Asides from that I am doing a summer course in contemporary and ballet, jazz etc...here at Laban and I am loving it! It is so inspiring!

See you soon...

Visit to a belgian village

2009-05-12T09:49:00.000-07:00

I managed to electricute myself on the fence despite warnings!

I think the donkey liked me...

update

2009-04-04T14:51:00.000-07:00

I haven't really been in a blogging mood lately, don't know why but a few things have gone on...
I broke up with amanda (my dance partner) and hence am in the process of finding a new one.
Am moving out from the current appart to live with fabienne (my 'friend') for a bit.
My visa will expiring at the end of summer so am looking for more options to stay such as appearing on tv program, going to do a masters here, or getting married;)
I might elaborate on those things if I catch a right moment to write...

stardust ball, feb '08

2009-02-24T09:46:00.000-08:00

let it snow let snow let it snow!

2009-02-02T01:46:00.000-08:00

There are six inches of snow in London today (first time since 1991) and everything stopped...no tube, no trains, no buses and people are advised to stay home(it is almost like after the terrorist attack). I love it, staying in today!

Alicante, Spain

2009-01-18T13:02:00.001-08:00

End of 2008

2008-12-14T04:30:00.000-08:00

This has been hard but productive year, I feel that I improved enormously in my dancing, started finishing my degree, came out of some financial difficulties and managed to have some fun in between. Its been good...I notice that over the past couple of years I have generally been quite content in my life and it is only some events or people that bring me down sometimes, that is nice because that proves that I am a positive person overall and I just need to have some stability in order to not the stressed, maybe it is the case with a lot of people but I have seen many who like to create drama where it needn't be and that is not my cup of tea;) I wish all of my friends and acquaintances a very happy coming Christmas and all the best in the new year! (just in case I don't post again for a month...it kind of leveled at that time frame for me lately)
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New Dance videos

2008-11-18T12:44:00.000-08:00

There is my last comp in Birmingham, UK (it is the 2richards videos)

...

2008-09-28T05:17:00.000-07:00

some new photos can be found here: http://www.the2richards.com/Gallk2/

I just taught Danny Minogue today, this is why I love this city!

some news

2008-08-24T04:06:00.000-07:00

I haven't been blogging much since we moved and I still have no internet at home, and it is not as much fun in an internet cafe...

We have been doing small comps around the country and we generally get third in amateur and first in pre champ (as we do it for practice) we didn't get through in the british closed though, we'll be better in nov. blackpool, overall it feels good and positive, we maintain progress and don't fight. I will post some videos from those comps as soon as I find time.

My sister was over here for a few weeks, it was her first 'big' trip and I had to do the big brother thing, she went around and even flew to belarus for a week to see the grandmother.

Been dating here and there but my mind is just not in it right now, I guess it is not the right time...

Went to south of France for a bit, loved the sun, loved the girls, didn't love the camper van and the nudist beach.

Summer is almost over but I think it was a good one, productive.

simple update

2008-06-24T09:28:00.000-07:00

Things seem in order, work is almost over for the summer, dancing is on track, sex is available, friends are there, education coming up. Now I shall get on with my day.

the most amazing thing I have ever heard and seen....

2008-06-04T17:21:00.000-07:00

please listen!

Blackpool and more

2008-05-26T12:38:00.001-07:00

Am going there tomorrow, amateurs and pros, it will be great! I need the inspiration and am curious to see Paul dancing with his new partner... Moving to a double bedroom in July with my neighbor, will finally have a proper place:) two bedrooms, living room, kitchen, bathroom, balcony...and the best part is we will get two cats! (i am voting for a fat furry white one:) Love this teaching schedule we have around three months paid holidays a year! (this week is off as well;)
I am so positive today:) lets keep it that way!

Back in the Game

2008-05-12T13:29:00.000-07:00

It was about time I have to say, I was getting a bit desperate...Spring time and all everyone seems to be horny and as naked as propriety permits, can't complain really!
Anyway it was this Italian chick that I have no intention of dating but using my magic communication skills I persuaded her to be 'friends with benefits', so we'll see how long that will last. There is a sexy half Lebanese american lawyer girl that might be interesting to a deeper extent especially considering that I have been watching 'Boston Legal' (which I highly recommend, it is super funny!) fanatically lately.
Dancing is on track I am feeling calm about it which in my world is good and hopefully it will only get better.
Starting uni again soon, I kind of miss academics, I have been reading a lot but more popular science and history type of best sellers, it is not the same as burying yourself in books and doing research as it used to be.

2008-04-17T16:40:00.000-07:00

i want to be a hero...

success!

2008-04-10T16:20:00.000-07:00

Well, I got the visa! So my life will go as planned, next stop the British closed championships in July! I am eager to put in practice everything I learned this year! Then, finishing up my Uni this year! Then saving money and repaying all debts! Life is good!

Closing Doors

2008-04-07T16:32:00.000-07:00

I am starting to realize the importance of this simple concept, one must close doors in order to keep peace of mind, apparently some legendary chinese general said that.

No more chasing after people who don't take any initiative

No more keeping contacts 'just because' or 'just in case' it is like keeping things in the house that you never use.

No more being nice to people who do not contribute to my life in any way yet take things from it

One must close doors and new ones will appear
that is the only way to advance

My aim is not to be 'everybody's friend' it is to be at peace with myself and those are different things although they might seem similar sometimes.

All is set for Mtl buisness trip...

2008-03-31T16:08:00.000-07:00

Yes, I think I have everything ready, Damn bureaucracy makes everything so long and tedious, but I will prevail!
Sometimes I wish one could just tell the truth, I like to live in England, I get a lot from training in dance here and I am making a life here, what is wrong with that?
I fail to comprehend world politics, the more I watch and listen to them the more it all seems like the jungle and not in a good way, what is the point of civilization if we can be civilized on either interpersonal or global level?
I am arriving on the evening of the 2nd and if all is well (which it will be!!!) will leave on the 16th to continue my european settlement:)
Ivanski give me a shout and we'll smoke a fat one together and discuss your ever so deep and engrossing nerdiness, maybe you can enlighten me on a few of your complex but somewhat pointless conquests of the cyberworld.
This is more of a practical trip for me so I don't want to party too much and I am sure most of the peeps are working but I'll be glad to meet up for coffees and such with most of the friends and comrades I might have missed on my earlier trip.
Time flies...

Happy Birthday to me!

2008-03-18T11:10:00.000-07:00

news

2008-03-15T13:24:00.000-07:00

Well, I decided to dance with the English girl, I figure she is ok and this will be good for me to get a national ranking, I think we have a good chance.
On another note my working permit got refused so I am now applying for a student visa (i even signed up for an english course:) so I have to come back to Canada to do it. I will be in Montreal from the 2nd to the 16th of April. Hope to see you all when I am there.
Otherwise all is chill, dancing is kind of consuming me at the moment so I don't have much more on my mind right now.

p.s. If you have read the previous post which I deleted, ignore it, I was tipsy and upset for no particular reason and was writing non sense.

tryouts finished

2008-03-03T14:31:00.000-08:00

well, am back to london, and it is decision time again...I hate those times. But i guess i should be excited.

gotta love florida..

2008-02-26T14:05:00.000-08:00

try outs

2008-01-28T14:59:00.000-08:00

Well, it has been going well with the tryouts. There is this Russian girl who is 18 and is very good, she lives here with her sister, there is the English girl who is not great but is ok and is English therefore would allow me to dance in the national comps here which would be a good career move. There was a fat chick who was quite good but fat..i told her to lose weight, I really did. There are a few more, denmark russian girl, american florida girl, and italian girl in Rome, all look skilled. will see how it goes, will try with them during my break from school. I am quite excited...it will be good!

London

2008-01-19T15:31:00.000-08:00

Today I saw this city with new eyes, it was an accident but i feel that i wanted to see it deep inside, I also feel that something might happen in near future, something violent and evil, or maybe that was it... it never ends though... you just have to open your eyes.

The started well, I slept loads, had a nice breakfast, went to practice, came back, and then i locked myself out. Not the worst that can happen i guess but it is saturday eve in london, so it is not great. Anyway, after a few futile attempts at unlocking it with a pin and deciding against smashing the door out (following the advice of my english neighbor who is already probably scared of me;-) I came to the conclusion that i must go to the outskirts of the city (Lee, for those of you familiar) and get the spare keys from Ernest (my london polish friend..he he) and it is cool except the fact that i am still a bit edgy from last week's outing and my encounter with my neighbor's crazy friend and her ex...(to make a long story short, I didn't want to go out my neighbor drugged me out, her friend came on to me thorough the night and then her psycho ex came and started harassing her and picking a fight with me, I managed to keep cool and send everyone home safely but was left deeply traumatized myself for a bit). Anyhow, tonight as I traveled through the dodgy london underground and mainline trains all I could see was fucked up people, this city hasn't changed since the last century! Andre was right, they are all pirates and goons at the end of the day! aristocrats too but they are just stuck up boring people. Chavs: for those of you not familiar with the term, are ignorant small town dumbasses who hang out at the train or gas stations and cause trouble. Commoners: builders, carpenters and other blue collars who are not very imaginative and have learned to accept their faith as simple people and care about and put effort into only two things; 1) working at their boring job, 2) getting drunk in the evenings and weekends. (well at least they are good people at heart..) and maybe getting laid once in a while by a drunk slut. Stupid Middle class brits who think they know something about life: Stupid youngsters who think they are on the road to a nice life because they go to school and live in london, they still posses the characteristics of the first two type but think they are better so try to act more civilized but once drunk come out as fools (singing ridiculous oldies on the tube, having mohawks as haircuts etc...) Then there are the aristocrats wannabes who try to bypass all that but just can't cause they have to be fat and say something stupid everytime i see them like; Oh, Russia!? That is crazy...is it really cold there? you still have communism? and shit like that, fuck it, i can't stand it! There are no fucking polar bears in canada are there? and the queen doesn't walk on the streets of london! and for the smart ones, Why Don't You get That You will Never get it because you never experienced it? HOW can anyone judge from here anything different...

Anyway...all this ranting is more about this: As I was coming out of my friend's girlfriend's place where I was treated like shit by her sister who doesn't like my friend( i hope you followed it;) There was a guy who tried to kill himself in front of his daughter, .... I found it really disturbing. we stopped the train but just seeing him there on the tracks on his knees in front of a coming train and his teenage daughter going hysterical just kills me. I guess i am very sensitive to people's emotions, and this is quite fucked up. these two weekends combined together get me into a freakin' state.. I don't know how some people live in this state all the time...my little experience in crime life has taught me that i don't handle this kind of stress well, i do it i guess but i hate it. maybe it is just practice like everything else, i just don't really want to get used to this................................enough.

i'm into sea monsters now..;-)

2008-01-17T15:38:00.001-08:00

stuff

2008-01-13T13:43:00.000-08:00

looking for a partner is annoying, it is a bit like dating, you have to send the stupid emails, then pictures then more email, then talk, then talk again, then meet, and then maybe you don't even like each other or if you do you meet again...and it goes on until both people are ready to make the commitment. i just want to get it over with and start doing something productive. i guess this might be useful in some way but i am just not in the mood right now, it especially sucks when the ones you are not bothered about always respond and the ones you are interested in either never do or take forever.

I miss my darling, she is like an angel that came into my life, everything about her is so pure, she always makes me feel good. I feel safe and happy when i talk to her, just to think of her feels me with this beautiful warmth. I love that there are no games or bullshit, I love that it still is exciting regardless, it is like a fantasy island as someone used to tell me.

My life will radically change in the next six months, for the good. I am looking forward to it.

back to london

2008-01-07T18:16:00.000-08:00

i don't know if it is something about me or my friends who have blogs because they always seem to be writing about sophisticated technical stuff or some serious business where as i mostly rubble about my inner self etc...perhaps it is because they are different than me and that is why i like them, i can learn from them, and maybe sometimes they learn from me too...one thing i realized going back was that i have some good friends, like i've never had before. it is very rewarding to feel free around people, one must strive to be free as much as possible. to me the truth is in expression and then validation, i think of all life as art, that is what maybe some people don't see or don't focus on enough. we get glimpses of it all the time but very few of us make the effort make it a way of life and that is a bit sad, i think.
btw, i broke up with diana, my dance partner, the conversation went somewhat like this:

david- hello, diana, how are you?

diana- i am fine david, thanks.

david- hmm...well....there is no nice way to put it.

diana- what?

david- its over.

diana- what do you mean?

david- we are not dancing together anymore..

about a minute pause...

diana- what made you make such a decision?

david- i was ready.

diana- (sounding a bit shaky) yes but what made you make this decision?

david- (getting a bit shaky as well) well it is not just now that i made it, but now i am ready..

another minute pause..

diana- oh.. the reception is bad here i will call you back..

end.

p.s. i haven't heard from her since and am quite relieved about it.

s

2007-12-31T16:28:00.000-08:00

The girl was beautiful, cutely shy yet interesting, classicly dressed and yet sexy, she had the perfect combination of everything i ever wanted in a woman...it all even happened as i always imagined it; we met, we liked each other, we met again, got to know each other, felt desire for each other, let the desire take over and feelings flow, then we loved each other even if for a brief moment, then we left each other to our things without regret, it was beautiful...that is all i will remember... my only wish is for us to meet again one day and that time have eternity to enjoy each other

time in mtl

2007-12-26T20:56:00.000-08:00

its been good, its been emotional, its been fun.

i learn about myself when i come here

i see myself for who i really am or at least who people see me as

i miss some people...and i can't even always admit it to them

it is both against the rules of attraction and propriety

i realized that i am a better dancer than i felt i was

i got inspired

i was let down

i got a sore throat

i drank a lot

i smoked a lot

i realized i need comfort and intimacy in travel

i am very glad that i learned to ignore and channel my emotions and intuition so as to maintain my dignity

i feel i have balls to say a lot of the things i say

i still want more

i might not be completely original but at least i accept myself

and most importantly

i believe in achieving true happiness

montreal

2007-12-23T11:44:00.000-08:00

I am here for christmas, you can reach me at 514 684-1561 or on my english mobile. It is nice but i have been partying too much...

stoned too often this week

2007-12-08T18:13:00.000-08:00

i think too much when i am stoned, everything is a game, an adventure. i retract to childhood...it is nice in a way, too many things in my head to write down, all the little intricacies of one's nature.. things are so simple and yet so complex.
ignore the last post the thing with dawne is over she is not a good person and i am sorry to say, has completely disappointed me, and worstly as a person even more, i dislike people like that! That can't face to the responsibilities of one's behavior..basically she just disappeared for some intricacy she had about me or herself without even a word, i believe it is rude at the least. now i am left with yet another decision to make and hate decisions;-) we'll see how that goes.
I met this girl the other day, she is cool, older 34ish, photographer, pretty, and easygoing. i hope it works out with her, is some sense or other cause i quite like her.
dancing is deceiving, one day you feel good another not so, so is the technique and teaching, you must be clever in deceiphering the information you get, i wish sometime it would be easier in that sense.
enough ranting, time for bed for a productive day tomorrow.

dancing and children

2007-11-28T15:35:00.000-08:00

I have been practicing with Dawne this week, and i have to say that i really like it, better than with Diana. I guess Audrey was right and you can't replace years of experience even if you go mad on training for a year or two. I feel really good about it, even though we are just beginning, i understand how she moves and why and also feel much stronger myself. Maybe it is just time, time of maturity.. I won't jinx it cause i don't know how it will turn out but i have a good feeling about this. As this really good couple told me once that you know if it is a good partner for you if you feel this happiness inside, and i do, so it must be not too bad.
Asides from that i am learning a lot about child psychology working at the school, it is really quite surprising at times..like they will do bad things to make up for their ignorance and if you give them attention they will be good again etc... hopefully this will help me when i have a child, whenever it might be..

David superstar

2007-11-24T04:09:00.001-08:00

I am now famous, i was on BBC london's breakfast show (it is about 47 min into the show, after the animals discussion and funny music) today, and i will be in London Lite (equivalent of metro in montreal) on monday. These are not my first press appearances as you can see in this OK magazine issue.

if you want an autograph, please let me know;-)

i don't know..

2007-11-21T17:20:00.000-08:00

i was stoned today and watched some dance videos...fucked up! i wish to dance like those who are able express their feeling while maintaining beauty...i know what i want...what will give me that?
fuck knows..we grow as dancers and as people but you always hone the skill, i wonder when the moment will come when i will fully enjoy it? i know how i will feel, what i will do, everything! but am not there yet! lol fuck!...:-) maybe i am still a bit stoned...well anyway, this is actually my ambition if anyone was curious...(i always feel when i am around people from my past that i have to explain myself!, lol) damn it is annoying but here it is, the beauty of complete and exquisite self expression of the latin dances, if you have not experienced it, you Will not understand!!! lol, i think i am stoned, no, you will theoretically but we are not logical creatures, fortunately! lol, therefore this 'little' pursuit of mine is perfectly normal and quite addictive, much more than even sex i have to say, and don't give me no bullshit about me not having great sex, cause i did! by god i did! lol but somehow i always feel emptier...lol... after., where as after an emotional and well executed performance (which i am yet to perform...;-) oned day!) it is still emptiness but a complete one like baking a great cake and eating it as opposed getting it in the supermarket, (which somehow i relate to university right now(the supermarket that is), not sure whether it makes sense though, ...lol) well i wish myself the best of luck, and good night, 'cause tomorrow is a new day, a new life, you know what i mean' ; 'you know what i mean'/ it is from a great song called 'feeling good which audrey once attempted to teach me, one day i will sing it well ;-)

some tipsy thoughts on the present events in my life

2007-11-14T14:52:00.000-08:00

thinking about changing dance partners...it is confusing. i seem to be easily influenced by people's opinions about my dancing, but it is the nature of the business in a way, in another it is the opposite, having thick skin and all. well, dawne...she is good technical and grounded, has money, has time, is from states, we get along well, it more simple thant diana. on the other hand she said she is an elena not a karina (only dancers will get this part, i am referring to slavick's partners past and present) which may be good or may be bad. i would prefer an elena now because it will be calmer and probably more productive. but karina is good on the long run because she gets attention, the problem is she is not getting any now while dancing (diana that is) the thing is that i feel like diana has opened some doors for me by allowing (and sometimes forcing me:) to think outside the box, with her lack of manners, stubornness, and weird ideas she managed to make me see things i did not see before...but i am quite impatient, partly because i have been here three years and don't have a result i can really be proud of, so it is my problem a bit. hmm. to improve or get better results is the question! or is it? i don't fucking know! and that is the problem, i need people i trust to decide on issues like that, i am just HORRIBLE at these kinds of decision making.!
it is like the relationships i never let go off, stupid, stupid, stupid, can't just see what you want? evaluate options? no no no i prefer to swim like a pair of stoned fish facing different directions until someone catches them on the hook! i am an indecisive dumbass in need of direction..

so my friends, i plee for advice, quickly please!

p.s. it is more complicated than that by the way, but that is as much as i can be bothered to describe,(i feel so british using this expression!) love it!

wing chun now..

2007-11-06T14:19:00.000-08:00

traditional or progressive? or are they the same, once you are good enough you see the common elements where its more about body mechanics, timing, adapting to the situation and psychology. weight forward or back? or just depending on the situation..in real life it won't matter where is your weight as long as you manage the attack, but there is certainly always an optimal position. a whip action creates a retraction from which you can defend and attack again instantly, boxers use it a lot but they don't use defensive techniques like pak or tan sau therefore limiting their repertoire because of sports factor and need for more points although their hunched body position keeps a good defence anyway allowing them to come back while taking minimal damage. In kung fu there are more elements, making the system more complex and therefore more difficult to master. but as the basics are concerned as we said of the punches it is the same with push and low side kicks and probably can be done with the fancier moves if you really practice it enough. the point is formlessness is best as long as you have a certain technical base and that takes time that most people won't invest that is why mixed martial arts is not as sophisticated as some traditional martial arts, although effective in the ring. you must feel the opponents balance point in order to tip him and be quick enough with your technique keeping your own solid stance, your whole body can be whipped into the attack. the best is intercepting move like bruce lee developed in his art. but to develop such sophistication of movement takes as much time and effort as to become a top class dancer:-)

Inspiration

2007-11-04T10:48:00.000-08:00

Without it we are nothing, when i am out for example, if like the setting or the background music i have something to say, otherwise it is boring. When one has a goal in mind and is inspired he does lots more than otherwise, it is important not to lose sight of it with all the distractions of daily life but sometimes you just fall victim to circumstances, i guess what i am saying is that for the past few weeks i feel lost and empty because my partner is injured and we can't practice. i do on my own but it is not the same, i remember Paul (killick) once saying that after you stop dancing you don't know what to do with yourself, we go from competition to competition from show to show and life always evolves, if that stops, i doubt anything can replace it. that is a big part of why we do it in the first place but we don't have insurance for the side effects..

paso clip

2007-11-01T18:48:00.000-07:00

Intro

2007-10-31T18:29:00.000-07:00

This is my second attempt at blogging as i think it will healthier than me simply drinking alone and watching anime at night. Don't take me wrong, I will still keep to the former but at least with this outlet i will not be so tempted to call some old or new flame of mine in the vain hope that they actually care about my actual state of being at that particular moment in time (when they are probably comfortably sited on the couch with their new man or a bottle of merlot about to choose a film to watch or on the phone to their girlfriend). Anyway, I actually talk like this when i am stoned or comfortably tipsy and I usually regret it if i am around the wrong people; they think i am weird or even if they don't i assume they do, get paranoid and therefore uncomfortable. But since this is my space, i will say whatever i want until, like last time, too many souls would have witnessed it and i will feel violated and possibly threatened (since we all have secrets and you might find some here..;-) this of course will have no effect on most close friends of mine as they heard most of my rubble already but to some others some things might come as a surprise, i suppose. Enough of the introduction.